If any of you spotted a girl crying in the traffic this afternoon*, that was me!
It all started this afternoon when I got a phone call from a mutual friend of mine and my sister. She called to ask me why my sis was organising her own baby shower (among other things). I had said that she was organising it because she had wanted to**.
My sister called just before i was leaving the office to tell me that she’d finalised her baby shower date – Saturday 27 February. I immediately became emotional because I realised that that is the day I’m supposed to leave for the Drakensberg for a week long conference. I burst into tears when I realised I may not be able to be the doting aunt-to-be and celebrate with her. I then brought up the other phone call earlier and my sis had said that the only reason she was organising it herself was because no-one had taken it upon themselves to organise something. Cue more water-works!
Once I’d calmed down a little after the call, I went to speak to my MD about that weekend. I asked if there was any way that I could drive down on the Saturday afternoon with Gary, with him staying the night and leaving the next day, or coming through on Sunday morning. Luckily he told me he’d keep it in mind and that he was sure we could organise something so I wouldn’t be a pile of tears if I wasn’t with my sis.
So yes I will most probably be able to attend, but I still feel awful and guilty! I have been so focussed on wedding-related things that I hadn’t even cast a though to my sister’s shower! She shouldn’t plan it herself! I feel like I am such a bad and inconsiderate sister, and like I’ve let her down… What makes things worse in my mind is that there isn’t a lot of spare cash to allow me to go all out and organise this for her! Feels like I’m in a Catch 22 and I don’t know what to do.
Any suggestions on how I can make this the best baby shower she could wish for, on a budget?
Hugs & Kisses
*My guilt and emotions wore down on me terribly that I cried the whole way home. This was not helped by the fact that the radio station was playing very mopey, sad, songs.
**My sis had said that she wanted a joint baby shower where the guys and gals celebrated the baby together instead of the usual “girls only” shower. So we had brainstormed ideas together but I had left it at that…
P.S. Thanks to all my Twitter ladies for your hugs and support, you know who you are!